I will say that the last five months I have been stripped of my desires and become dependent on the Father for all my plans, needs, longings etc. it has been a hard road but one that has brought me to the point of surrender... I just recently have decided to wait on going back to Africa, it has been a battle between the Lord and I. The funny thing is he wins... He always wins, but I love the fact that He lets us process, He is so patient with His children. I have a peace that passes all my understanding and I am trusting that His ways are higher than mine. I wish I could say that I have now reached the point that I am so dependent on the Lord that I never question, never doubt, but one thing I have learned in all this is that God is faithful. He is steadfast and He is loving. I picture myself as a small child, one that is not getting her way. As a parent we know what is best for the child, even if they scream and ask "why are you doing this" we still love them, we still are desiring the best for them and do all we can to make the "best" happen regardless of the child's actions... How much more our heavenly Father loves us, and desires what is good for us. I am so excited to see what is next on this journey we call life. I know that He will allow me to go back to Africa, but I feel such peace that in this season, this time in my walk I am to be here... I trust that He will open the door for me when He desires, until then I rest in His grace, faithfulness, and steadfast love!Thursday, April 3, 2008
Faith
I will say that the last five months I have been stripped of my desires and become dependent on the Father for all my plans, needs, longings etc. it has been a hard road but one that has brought me to the point of surrender... I just recently have decided to wait on going back to Africa, it has been a battle between the Lord and I. The funny thing is he wins... He always wins, but I love the fact that He lets us process, He is so patient with His children. I have a peace that passes all my understanding and I am trusting that His ways are higher than mine. I wish I could say that I have now reached the point that I am so dependent on the Lord that I never question, never doubt, but one thing I have learned in all this is that God is faithful. He is steadfast and He is loving. I picture myself as a small child, one that is not getting her way. As a parent we know what is best for the child, even if they scream and ask "why are you doing this" we still love them, we still are desiring the best for them and do all we can to make the "best" happen regardless of the child's actions... How much more our heavenly Father loves us, and desires what is good for us. I am so excited to see what is next on this journey we call life. I know that He will allow me to go back to Africa, but I feel such peace that in this season, this time in my walk I am to be here... I trust that He will open the door for me when He desires, until then I rest in His grace, faithfulness, and steadfast love!
Monday, February 11, 2008
Africa
Oh I miss Africa...
Being home has taught me so much, I have learned the hard lesson of stillness and waiting... I have learned the passion of prayer and worship, I have learned to embrace what the Father has for me and not what I want for myself, and I have learned to be a pleaser of God and not of man!
I have fallen in love with a savior that pursues me daily and desires the best for me.
I am excited to be able to go back to Africa and continue the work that God has called me to.
I have grown in my passions for the people and the children there. I will share more of the ministries he has called me to in another blog but for now just know I am going back and I am so excited!
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